Tired.

Whoa. It has finally caught up with me, all those early starts have knocked me out.

I am SO TIRED...slept alot of the afternoon away...

Could sleep more but have gotten up...

I am my own person

The option is available to go and hang out in Brighton today.

My knee is still playing up.

I feel shattered from a long week of getting up at 5.45 in the morning to go to work and run around till 7 or 730 in the evening.

It doesn't leave much energy for anything other than chillin.

I suppose i am meant to make much more effort in the pursuit of the flesh but I have gone so long without that it is no longer a driving force in my existence.

To walk this earth alone

 
Am I to walk this earth alone?

It is so long that I have felt a 'connection' with any of the girls that come my way.  I have too many female friends and aqquaintances but no lovers.

Then there are times where I accept this situaution and am able to move along at my own pace and go my own direction, which is not a bad thing really.

Yes there are times when you see the couples, the tentative new relationships, the first dates and you feel a pang of jealously but then you also see the petty arguements and the sniping and you smile to yourself for being free of all that.

 

So hard to do anything else

 
I'm so tired! The hours are so long but I enjoy it, I get a buzz from it.

However I'm finishing at 7 or 7.30 by the time i get back its past 8!

How is one meant to try and live a life other than that of work?

You can't have it all...yet some seem to have managed...

To be continued...

back where i should be

 
It feels good to be a part of something that is going to be big no matter what.
 
Getting back into the routine of the mega early wake up, get in the car again was a bit of a shock to the system. I should get a sponsorship deal from Berocca.
 
Also seeing many familiar faces in the last couple of days has been good.
 
Managed to get to the gym as well after work...

does anybody read this?

I wonder does anybody actually read these entries other than myself?

If you have read it leave a comment...Thank you

Back to work

After 8 weeks of unemployment I am back in employment at the same studio. I cannot get away from that studio.

Wish my leg would get better...

another party

Another party yesterday but didn't drink as much - one beer was my lot.

The opportunity for making mischief with a gal just does not exist like when you were a teenager. Parties now are mainly full with couples and those that are single are like friends and you no longer see each other as anything but friends.

no brighton

Didn't go to Brighton.

So guess what I did?

Went to the gym and hit golf balls.

It may not be exciting to some but its enough for me at this moment in time.

what is it?

My god something has decided to bite me all over my back. Lots of bites that itch like hell!!!

I have sore muscles but will go to the gym since I still cannot go to the dojo yet. Wish my knee would get completely back to normal asap.

Arghhh my back is so itchy...

Maybe I'll go to Brighton later today...

strangely addictive

I find it strangely addictive having this page and keep adding to it.

Went to the gym and confirmed what I knew I must get stronger.

What a difference a day makes hit another bucket of golf balls with less success than yesterday. Its true what they say perfection is unattainable. You get of the ball right just once and you think you have discovered your swing only for the golf gods to laugh at you as you completely screw up the next shot. Lesson to be learnt is be humble.

That's all for now, no doubt I'll find something incredibly inane or interesting depending on how you want to look at it.

stronger faster

My knee continues to heal but it still means I cannot be as active as I would like. So for the next couple of weeks I shall be unable to do treadmill work and the like. Did still hit golf balls yesterday at the range and found that the lesson I had has helped. Hell, could have applied for a PGA Tour card after some shots yesterday only to duff the next ball!

The world keeps turning and I watch the days pass plotting my next move...

An Observation

I was invited to a friend's flatmates birthday party at the weekend. Now why was I bothered to see one of the flatmates snogging another guest? Guess I fancied her too but didn't do anything about it...typical.

Left at 3a.m driving myself very carefully back.

Not sure how much I drunk but was very naughty driving myself all trhe way home.

Next day hungover and when I did get in my car again it tank of booze!

Well I'm sure I'm not the only one who has been known to howl at the moon aided by alcohol.

the beginning

It is now the 7th July 2004 and this is the first entry...

Inspired by a friend I have started this...

Here it is

Tuesday 6th July 2004

So it begins...