Here again

My life is rather strange and often I am prone to bouts of extreme self-examination that borders not on loathing but a mistrust of myself.

I think people find it hard to be around me because I sometimes need the quiet moments of reflection when I'm with them. Its not always easy just to enjoy silences together, you need the presence of another but not always to speak.

I think about people in my life and realize that there are certain individuals that give me hope and who I think about everyday at some point. I might just say their names in my mind under my breath and I smile to myself thinking about them.

I want what's best for them and I have started to recognize the ones that truly want what's best for me and that's priceless.