Saturday, July 11, 2009

Relax?

I find it very hard to relax. It hits me more often than not because I'm not working nor do I know what my niche is in life is. The usual triggers cause this anxiety like seeing bank account details which just serve to reinforce my feelings of disappointment and inadequacy in myself.

On the face of it I have a seemingly idyllic and relaxed life. This is not necessarily out of choice but due in part to the afore mentioned apathy and laziness combination.

I do in fact have a casual job starting next month which will be of the as and when we need you variety so I'm not sure how many hours a week that will be yet. Its a tough world out there and I'm not afraid to admit I haven't really found my niche. I kind of wish I had because it would be one less thing to worry about.

I'd like to have a bit more fun in life and to enjoy it more than I do.

Any good ideas anyone aside from 'relax'?