Of Push ups and Bicycles

I saw the link for this on Gimchi's blog and am now doing this...one hundred pushups

As usual I was somewhat sceptical but have since become a convert after one week and noticing an improvement each time.

Finally, after a very long time I went for a bike ride today since my leg injury and subsequent weakening of the knee. I do enjoy riding my bicycle, there is something very satisfying about going out and about under your own steam. Towards the end I felt my calf alarmingly tighten but coasted for a while and was able to make it back with my thighs burning a little. I look forward now to the weather getting better and hopefully my strength both pushups wise and cycling.

Angst

My angst has resurfaced as I fear for my a future that is yet to materialize and whether I am walking down the right path despite claiming to have found the right one less than a month ago.

Oh dear!

One solution has been offered to me but I'm not interested in that one which requires faith and I don't have that faith.

I think the angst has arisen from thinking and self-analyzing again and fearing that I have no idea of what I'm doing or trying to say without making work that is just derivative of something that somebody else has made or that I've just seen. Of course there are certain forms that exist and are universally known like the square, triangle and circle, I guess the trick is to know how to bullshit and to find a way into them that has some sort of credence.