Self doubt

I am plagued by self-doubt and a chronic lack of self-confidence that seems to hit me like a wave usually in the middle or towards the end of a month. It comes on in such a way that I feel so miserable and angry that I can only express it as a kind of despair with rage thrown into the mix.

I am finally able to walk without crutches but don't have a full range of mobility back yet and must still be careful. Everytime I get cocky I wobble and my weight shifts uncomfortably onto my left thigh so I'm maintaining the use of one crutch for a while longer.

I've gone back to school with absolutely no clue about what to do in regards to money. I've chosen to study Fine Art and Applied Art at Masters level. Jeez, I like making my life difficult...its too early to say if I'm loving it, hating it or just being.