Is anybody out there?!

And so it's been a while since I've been here...well lets face it nothing much really happens in my life.

I seem to be perpetually observing life around me and others falling in and out of love but never do I find anything like that for myself.

Sometimes I wonder is falling in and out of love only for other people, is there truly somebody for everybody somewhere?

There are days where I do not feel connected with the reality of being a functioning adult in this world for I have no responsibilities. All my attention and focus is turned towards me amd all this morbid self absorbtion does not make me a normal, happy functioning member of society.

I feel anonymous and sometimes invisible.

What is it like to be somebody special to somebody?

Answers on a postcard please...