The Future
Well, I finally got some work on a picture for a couple of months, got paid under rate and went from fear and loathing to moments of not exactly euphoria but times where I almost enjoyed myself (but don't tell everyone!) Now I'm back to looking for the next!
I know that if I am to continue in this area I will need to learn and find some sort of enthusiasm for using CAD software. I no longer possess the drive to learn by myself but with the proper tuition I'm sure it could happen. In that respect perhaps I am like a dog or a small child who needs a pat on the head when I get it right.
I have started to think that I need to get back to writing fiction and or scripts again. For a while in my twenties that's what I wanted to do then I got sidetracked into another aspect of film making.
The test will be making these intentions become reality by actually actively finding, pursuing and doing these things.
Along those lines I have started contemplating internet dating again but while I enjoy looking at all the profiles I just can't see myself going through the whole process of finding a restaurant, bar etcetera which kinda defeats the purpose of dating. So in the meantime we'll put that one on the backburner.
I know that if I am to continue in this area I will need to learn and find some sort of enthusiasm for using CAD software. I no longer possess the drive to learn by myself but with the proper tuition I'm sure it could happen. In that respect perhaps I am like a dog or a small child who needs a pat on the head when I get it right.
I have started to think that I need to get back to writing fiction and or scripts again. For a while in my twenties that's what I wanted to do then I got sidetracked into another aspect of film making.
The test will be making these intentions become reality by actually actively finding, pursuing and doing these things.
Along those lines I have started contemplating internet dating again but while I enjoy looking at all the profiles I just can't see myself going through the whole process of finding a restaurant, bar etcetera which kinda defeats the purpose of dating. So in the meantime we'll put that one on the backburner.
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4 Comments:
Finding the restaurant is what puts you off? So you're absolutely fine with the antecipatory nerves, fear of rejection, possible disappointment, dreaded small talk, what if she hates me?, where do we go from here?, etc, etc?
;)
I'm mean!
You're right, it's all in the drive you have or lack to do those things you're contemplating. You are an Aries after all, so it's all about the energy and the will.
Happy New year!
I'm set work-wise, but face the same lack of drive for resuming my exercise program. I think I need to have something to train for - the pat on the head thing :) PLUS, it's a million degrees here. Look at me...already making excuses!
Happy new year Finn!
dating sucks. I remember i used to dread it. Then i'd go and i'd have a good time, but the aftertaste of dread lingered on for weeks.
happy new year fb! here's to a year of doing and learning new things!
i would say something about the dating but i think devil mood, stephanie and chloe pretty much covered it - bringing up things i hadn't even considered. hmm....
it sounds mighty interesting already.
may it be a fabulous year!
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